A Crazy Mom..

I clearly still remember coming home from my junior high school day and saw my mom shouted to my neighbor. My neighbor asked me, why did my mother shouted and so angry for no reason at them? I clearly did not have any answer. My mom didn't even recognize me as her child, She called me by another name, a name that I don't even know. The whole neighborhood knew that my mother is a bit wacky, but at that time I didn't know that as a kid. I just knew that my mom is different, she is my mom but she is just unique. After a while, I finally knew that my mom is having schizophrenia, a disease that I didn't even understand until now.

As a child I was confused, I am quite ambitious but I didn't know a lot of things in life just like most 14 years old kids. I was having my first period but my mother never taught me anything about it. If you didn't know, a schizophrenic person tends to have poor hygiene so I assumed she doesn't even know how to take care of herself nor how to teach her child to do so. I first learned how to wipe my v after I pee was just because my aunty saw me that I didn't do it as a teenager. Even, my father took me to have my first own miniset because my mother didn't know how to do it. The bottom line is I didn't have a mother figure growing up.

Is it hard having a mom with mental illness? yes it is, but it sure teaches me a lot of things until now. My mother is kind, she is kind and always be. It teaches me that I have the greatest father that looked after his kids and his mentally ill wife. If I were him, I honestly couldn't stand to take care of children and an extra wife that acting like a child but miraculously He managed to do it all.

I hope you when you read my story, you learn how to appreciate and respect people mentally ill person, it is not easy for their family and most importantly it is not an easy battle for themself. xx